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Angela Wallace Sasstainable

It’s been nearly a year since I posted at Sasstainable. Eleven long months of blogger’s silence does not a top-ranking website make. I could blame all kinds of things from my full-time job, my toddler or the steady erosion of my relationship. I’m separated now and adjusting to life as a single parent, as my ex and I co-parent our amazing two-year-old ray of sunshine. My lovely Little Miss. I have wanted to share so much more about her, my divorce and how I’m moving forward. And I will, eventually.

The truth is I haven’t blogged because I lost myself. Because when life gets messy the light of our creativity can get lost in our own darkness. And it takes effort to crawl out of that and start speaking up again – to learn what it is to be unafraid of the sound of your own voice. In public at least, because I have been writing privately. There’s something about putting pen to paper that helps me cut through the bullshit and get straight to the heart of me.

There has been a lot of pain, but just enough love and joy to carry me through. My friends and family have been spectacular, really ridiculously awesome. They’ve let me cry and drink and talk and mourn. I’ve still been on social media. The community I have gives me an incredible sense of belonging and purpose, and inclusion that reminds me of my values. Thanks, to so many of you, for being present with me there.

But brokenness is a beast that doesn’t leave you alone all too easily. No matter how many likes you get on Instagram or retweets on Twitter or pages you write in a journal. It takes time. And vodka. And therapy. And singing Adele in your living room with your daughter. And cooking. And even stress leave from work to beat that beast. But I will, eventually.

So, I’m back. It might be a bit of a different blog, now. But I’m still the same person at the core of me. Fashion week is around the corner and I have a few new projects on the way.

Thanks for visiting again. Please come back soon. I’m still here – A xx

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About the Author

Angela is founder and editor of Sasstainable, an insider voice on sustainable lifestyle and ethical luxury. In 2013, she completed her MSc in Environmental Management at the University of London, at the Centre for Development, Environment and Policy. Her passion for the environment grew out of her family's rural property in Raglan, Ontario, now a designated Natural Heritage System area in the Ontario Greenbelt. In 2009, she was granted Ryerson University's Top 30 Under 30 Alumni award, because of her work as a motivational speaker. She inspired over 30,000 high school and university students across North America. She is a published writer, contributing articles to Geez Magazine, Eluxe Magazine and Feelgood Style, among others. She enjoys fashion, cooking, art and yoga. She served on the board of directors for Toronto Zooshare Biogas Co-operative and Toronto Green Community. She currently lives in Toronto, Canada, with her 3 year-old daughter, Charlotte.

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  1. So sorry that things have been so tough for you over the last year Angela. I know from personal experience how hard it can be working full time with children and it must be hard to blog when you are feeling down and have so much to deal with. Glad that you have such supportive friends and family. No rush to blog, the blog will still be here whenever you are ready, enjoy as much time as you can with your little lady, they grow up too fast! Take care and look forward to reading more posts when ever you are ready.

    • sasstainable says:

      Hi Ceri! How nice to hear from you – I always think back fondly on meeting you in London, from EFF to our visit at Vogue Festival when Livia Firth and Vivienne Westwood spoke about ethical fashion, and the hilarity of Westwood’s long winded (and irate) commentary on the industry.

      You’re so right – blogging is always here, but family and health and wellness come first. I’m so grateful to have a (global!) community of people I have connected with who are so genuine and authentic in life and social media. Thanks for your kind words and I hope you and yours are well in England. One day at a time. All the very very best, Angela x

  2. BeYindi says:

    head up hope this is not the last one

    • sasstainable says:

      Definitely not! Will still keep blogging – thanks for the encouragement. Angela x